‘You Will Always See Me Try’

Jennifer Hudson joins Mila Kunis, Quinta Brunson and Matthew McConaughey asone of PEOPLE ‘s 2022 People of the Year! Look for all four covers onnewsstands this week and read more below from Hudson’s revealing interview inthe new issue.

As a new mom living in her hometown of Chicago, Jennifer Hudson had a uniqueritual with her only child. “When David was a baby, we lived in this high-riseapartment that had the most beautiful view of the sky and Lake Michigan,”Hudson, 41, recalls of life with her son, now 13.

Already an acclaimed singer and actress at the time, Hudson was determined toensure the apple didn’t fall far from the tree. “My mother always instilled inus, ‘Whatever you put your mind to, you can do it,’ and I want to do the samefor him,” she adds. “So when he would eat, I would take his high chair andface it toward the window because I wanted him to know ‘As far as you can see,you can achieve.’ “

Jennifer Hudson photographed for People's People of the Year issue onNovember 11, 2022 at a private location in Venice,California.

Jennifer Hudson photographed for People’s People of the Year issue on November11, 2022 at a private location in Venice, California.

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That mantra has served her well. After her shocking early exit from americanidol in 2004, the singer went on to star in the 2006 movie dream girls andwin an Oscar for her performance. She took home a Grammy in 2009 for best R&Balbum (her first of two) and last year nabbed a Daytime Emmy as an executiveproducer of Baba Yaga , a virtual reality animated short film. In JuneHudson received a Tony for co-producing the Broadway musical _A Strange Loop_making her the 17th person — and youngest female — to achieve EGOT status bywinning the four highest entertainment-industry awards.

“It’s a huge honor and has been an ongoing celebration,” she says. “I feellike it opens the space for me to be able to pick and choose more of what Iwant to do, but that’s been my whole career. I like to lead by my heart andwhat I’m passionate about.”

Her latest passion? A highly anticipated, syndicated daytime talk show thatpremiered in September. Whether at work or navigating life as mom to ateenager, Hudson still sets her sights on the horizon. “Everything I do makesme anxious, but you will always see me try,” she says. “I love breaking newground. All of it [causes] anxiety and fear—but that’s how we grow.”

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How does it feel to be an EGOT winner?

I’m still figuring that out. It’s something, obviously, that I aspired to, butit takes a long time to process. It puts me in a better position to be able tolend more support. But I feel the same way [about] being a talk show host, tocreate a platform for everyone, just so we all have a place to feel included,and using my position and impact to be able to just continue to bring everyonetogether.

What ‘s been the most surprising thing about doing the talk show?

I can’t say I knew what to expect. I’m still learning as I go. I think seeinghow huge of a machine it is, how many departments it has, meeting the crew andthe staff. I’ve been a guest on a show like this, but to come in from a hostperspective and see the entire production, I think that’s the most surprisingpart.

How do you think 5-year-old Jennifer would respond to your life now?

You know, back then I used to have a lot of big ideas, and I always remembermy mama saying, “You can’t do everything.” So to be the 41-year-old Jennifernow, it’s like, “Well, Mama, I done did some of everything.” Your dreams,whatever you put your mind to, you can do it. And to be able to achieve that,I think little Jennifer would see that I was on the right track with myvisions and my goals.Although this is beyond my dreams.

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What were you like as a child?

I used to always speak about what I was going to do or be. Like when I was 7years old and the teachers asked, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” Isaid, “I’m going to be famous.” And I spoke it into existence.

When did you first realize you could sing?

That’s always been a part of me. I don’t remember a time where I didn’t, butit took other people to say, “Look at the impact that you have and theinvestment that your teachers or the adults are making in you.” My familysaying, “Yes, the family has a talent, but Jennifer has a gift”—that made melook at it and say, “Oh, well, maybe I do have something different.”

What was the most important thing you learned from not winning americanidol?

There’s a lesson in everything. Nothing is just, like, “Oh you just placedseventh.” That was a platform that allowed me to be seen and prepared me forwhat was to come. Everything leads to the next in some capacity. You may notget what you think you’re supposed to out of it, but it will help prepare youfor what you will have eventually.

Is there anything that makes you feel insecure?

I mean, we are all insecure about something. I always like to accentuate thepositive, though. What am I insecure about? I don’t know how to explain it.How vulnerable of a heart I have. Because sometimes when people see kindness,they take it for granted, so at times I think it can cause an insecurity inthat way.

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What do you love most about the person your son has become?

He is so thoughtful and very well-rounded. He’s very considerate. He is such agiver and very practical. I think he’s wise for his age. We have our children,you love them, but sometimes they grow up in a way where you’re like, “Now Ididn’t raise you like that.” But [even] if he wasn’t my child, this little boyis an amazing human.

Talk me through a day when you ‘re not working.

I don’t know what that is! I’m with the kids, maybe watching basketball. It’snot like once the cameras cut, I’m off from that persona that’s created. No,this is very much me. Half the time [when] I’m singing, I don’t even realizeI’m singing or talking. And I love people, so it’s like what you see is whatyou get.

Are you a morning person or a night owl?

Why sleep when you’re busy living your dream? I don’t need a lot of sleep,because I do thrive off of energy. I love what I do, and I rest when I can. IfI don’t do my work or if it’s lingering, my mind never stops. Which is why Iwork as hard as I do, because I want to have earned the right to rest.

Jennifer Hudson photographed for People's People of the Year issue onNovember 11, 2022 at a private location in Venice,California.JenniferHudson photographed for People's People of the Year issue on November 11, 2022at a private location in Venice,California.

Jennifer Hudson photographed for People’s People of the Year issue on November11, 2022 at a private location in Venice, California.

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So how do you decompress?

Sitting in the house with my cats. Massages. I love just sitting and watchingmy kid play his video games. Shopping and chocolate. Drawing. I love spray-painting things, riding my bike, those things help bring me down a notch.

What ‘s left on your bucket list?

I definitely want to direct at some point. That’s enough, because when I saysomething, it happens. And I wouldn’t mind touring again. Obviously anotheralbum. And then I want to play the piano more. By the time I get out of thischair, I’ll have something else.

Jennifer Hudson photographed for People's People of the Year issue onNovember 11, 2022 at a private location in Venice,California.JenniferHudson photographed for People's People of the Year issue on November 11, 2022at a private location in Venice,California.

Jennifer Hudson photographed for People’s People of the Year issue on November11, 2022 at a private location in Venice, California.

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With that said, how would you describe your life now?

It’s hopping on a roller coaster every day as I hit the ground running. It hasits highs and lows and everything in between. But it’s a beautiful, beautifulride. If God don’t do another thing, he’s done enough. And I am satisfied.

For more of the exclusive interview with Jennifer Hudson, and PEOPLE ‘ sthree other People of the Year cover honorees, please pick up this week’sissue, on newsstands everywhere Friday.